I found her on her side
in the mucky pond behind the house,
bedded in rigor, head submerged
but flanks exposed, covered in flies.
White tail. Little peninsula.
Nights ago, I startled you with my headlights
as you leapt into the tall grasses,
and each day since I waited for your return.
You made my heart skip.
Maybe you dipped to drink
along the low bank, settled in the cool water
to relieve some pain, some wound unseen.
What loneliness drove you
under the low-hanging trees
and knotted roots along the bank?
Who will miss you?
When the men hauled you
onto shore, the dragonflies swooped
and swirled the sickening heat,
in the space your body had been.
The noonday sun is brutal;
the pond reflects everything.
January Gill O'Neil is an associate professor at Salem State University, and the author of Rewilding (2018), Misery Islands (2014), and Underlife (2009), all published by CavanKerry Press. From 2012-2018, she served as the executive director of the Massachusetts Poetry Festival, and currently serves on the boards of AWP and Montserrat College of Art. Her poems and articles have appeared in The New York Times Magazine, the Academy of American Poets’ Poem-A-Day series, American Poetry Review, Green Mountains Review, Poetry, and Sierra magazine, among others. The recipient of fellowships from the Massachusetts Cultural Council, Cave Canem, and the Barbara Deming Memorial Fund, O'Neil was the 2019-2020 John and Renée Grisham Writer-in-Residence at the University of Mississippi, Oxford. She lives with her two children in Beverly, MA.