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The Alternative

The Alternative

Nicole Callihan

Posted 2/3

Having woken in my own hot arms,

my own hot body clinging to the sheets,

and the sweat of me, and the snow

beyond the snow, beyond the snow

out the window, I strip naked,

lie on the marble, let the cool of it

move to my bones. It is something

to be on fire, my last best burning

in the winter. It is something

for the heat of a life to collect and collect

in the small of your back, the blades

of the shoulders, a kindling, a kinder

reminder. How when you were young

the women on the porch said,

it’s better than the alternative, and because

you were a fool, you doubted them,

because you were a fool, you thought

beauty was whole, something to be

observed, slick as a magazine page,

to be desired like so many mouthfuls

of cake, to be revered, a cock-eyed

crown, shiny, and without fear

of drowning, of going down, of depths

unknown, but now that you have

woken in your own hot arms

in a winter with its own sort of war,

you know better. Don’t you?

“The Alternative” is a poem from the collection Everything is Temporary by Artist-in-Residence, Nicole Callihan.

On September 29, 2020, Nicole Callihan was diagnosed with breast cancer. A double mastectomy, a lymph node dissection, radiation, and hormone therapy followed. All the while, she committed to her everyday practice of making art. Many of the recordings were originally posted to the weekly open-mic series, Wednesday Night Poetry; the images that accompany the poems were selected from her Instagram collection @thebluepitcher.   These are poems and notes she took in the months that followed her diagnosis. 

See Nicole Callihan read her work below:

Image Credits: Nicole Callihan
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